I am ashamed that I have not cheered you on as I should have done when you were awarded an honor (and I was not).
I admit, my first thought was how will this work, when you are, and I am not? How will it fit, and how will we fit with it?
I did not demonstrate to you (like I think I should have) that I was proud of you for being wanted, at least not as much as I think it deserved, because I was thinking about me, us, and how it all would work out.
I apologize, and please know that I am cheering for you. Congratulations! You deserve it!